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I remember sneaking out of bed at three AM in a sleep-deprived panic

when my parents’ old and breaking hearts echoed off of the taupe walls and into

my ears, age nine.
I was fearful that it was my fault when I decided that I didn’t want to do the dishes
(I’m sorry).

Tip toeing with the elegance of a toy soldier; I hid behind the Christmas tree that was up one month too early for presents and

I peeked into the living room. 
I was bright orange like a firefly on the wall, eavesdropping.
Half of my face was lit by nothing but the screams of the fireplace and
the heat of them 
trying to pick up the pieces.

I’m glad we moved away from Ravendale, into that big, new house on Jenkinson because I would have never stopped searching the floor for any left over shards.

Mom, I know you would have too, but you liked to vacuum.

As if thirty years of your life could fit inside of a two inch wide tube.

Sometimes I wonder when your love went sour or

when your heart turned bitter or when
ninety seven point nine degrees farenheit became a mere

ninety seven.
 Was it when he made love with his
 I’m sure at twenty one in a white dress and his white shirt
every love looks better in words; in a
vow to always pick up his underwear from behind the bathroom door,

but I don’t think you cared much for laundry, either.

As I was in the garage just now, having one last cigarette for the evening I remembered

what you’d said about fate, specifically ours and

that things would be different had Nora not died. That this would all be different.
And so I romanticized about different like different meant better. 

As if different meant perfect: I would be in New York City,
I would have never been foolishly in love, Nora would have taught her son how to 
be a husband and taught you to be happy.

When I peeked into the living room, 
Grammy couldn’t do much to hold me
back, but I’m sure if she were here she would have told us

that different does not mean perfect.

For my mother and my grandmother, Lucas Regazzi
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